Saturday, October 14, 2006
wheeeeeeee.
exam results were um not as disastrous as i thought,
but some were quite disappointing.
new blog!
new skin, new blog ysee(:
&smileeee my comp is up again:D
Friday, October 06, 2006
the chirps of distant birds, utter bliss,
the sweet smell of love hung in the air, tantalizing,
the slow currents lapping the shores, tranquility,
the fluttering white clouds showing depths of the sky, peace,
the vast beach of coarse sands spread out, stability,
the small cottage of dreams up upon a hill, simplicity,
the floating silk scarf draped upon the fence, elegance,
the blinding glare of the sun rays shooting through the skies,
the rustling of yellow-brown leaves whispering death's arrival,
the tears of the heaven above stopping death in vain,
the trickle of blood within and furtive calls for help,
the lost captivated helpless soul in the cabinet of death,
the ticks of the second hand knocking dashing dreams with each move,
the numb feeling in the heart disturbed yet so very peaceful,
the nothingness and stillness of stale water once enriched by life,
the colours and glamours and joy dropped the heart to rock bottom,
the grim thoughts of ending it all just there and then,
the wetness of the water splashing upon the face, awakening,
the dying down of the waves leaving murky outlines, losing hopes,
the soft touch of the sand filling every opening possible, suffocating,
the yelps of birds cutting the skies into halves, casting towering shadows,
the traces of foot prints showed the road of life, of eternity sleep,
the crushing of notes, burying of coins, separating away from the world,
the laughter filling the whole field of hope replaced forever,
the drowning sorrow the cliff of death the invisible urge to step over,
all but the misleading path of life.
went to watch the movie right after exams
john tucker must die ^^
i sympathised with that poor guy
&santi went saying everything i say is funny
-.- its not.
and when i said NaCl a little too loud
when the "other tucker" had sodium chloride spilt on him
and he went shouting away...
my existance was proved with some laughters
and "WAHLAO"s.
finally exams are over (:
*GROANS*
this is what happens when you have nothing to groan about.
or prolly its the pre-collection of results stress.
:Dlife's full of stress.
&everything contributes to something called
mental stability.
crazy over the book
In A Land of Plenty.
good read(:
about this family's ups and downs.
really reflects our lives in some way or another.
:D
until the next time i get online,
toodles!^^
GUNBOUND~
______weilin's-nonsensical-blabbers.
like at a cross section of a busy road,
cars pass by failing to take note of your existance,
the peace and loneliness of facing it all - alone.
like at a train station,
trying to decide whether to get on the train and go with the flow,
or jump down the tracks and risk it all.
now deciding whether to hold on to the broken wings,
or let go and fall.
scenes of freeze frames in life,
pictures that depict a thousand words,
scribbles and doodles of a bored soul,
flashing through the mind now though
is just but a blank world.
what is yours will aways be,
just as what isnt yours will never be.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
i was stunned by your sms.
you had to be that wave,
that passed by swiftly yet momentarily,
unknowingly leaving traces behind,
memories of you will be etched forever in my mind.
upon letting out the pains of your heart,
erasing her from your world you claim,
blind folding me with the perfect you.
but in the end it all spilled out.
it turned from a utopia to an utterly cold island.
once,white shrouded clouds flutter by,
falsely suggesting the utmost desired peace.
now its all gone,letting out the blinding sun, the ugly lies,
distorted truths lay out one after one,
each not failing to hurt me,
all putting a sudden halt to my life,
destroying me.
you were my everything,
you were my core, my breath, my voice.
so insignificant yet so very important.
your honesty and straight forwardness touched me,
your sweet words moved me,
you brought smiles to my face,
&my perfect impression of you turned out to be an illusion.
you crumpled my life, just like a piece of paper
just like a beautiful origami work reduced to a ball of pulp.
blaming the fact we're from two different worlds,
total separate lives we lead.
tears, i held back.
for the fact that i still think you would be there
for me.
your words rung through and through
when you said
"im thinking and loving her more than ever more than anyone"
did you think about my feelings?
when you said
"dont worry i wont miss you cause i am too crazy over her"
did you think about ME?
for a moment i feel i hate you.
for the next, i dont know.
the words stung,
leaving those open wounds to burn.
&you're leaving them just like that.
you're leaving me just like that.
i dont know how you see me.
merely as your little sister?
merely as your confider?
merely as your listener?
or as the person who would stupidly no fail await your smses daily.
im tired.
so i ask myself if its all worth it
to give everything now.
to stop the chase,
to forget about you,
to stop my breath.
so long. forever.